Camille preaker
(from the show sharp objects) shes been on my mind recently. alot of people on tiktok have dumbed her down to a sad little pervert which annoys me because although it is creepy shes looking at those girls bodies with admiration for their clean skin "untouched by trauma" and in some way i can relate to that with my admiration for the naivety of the girls in my age group. it makes me so so so angry.
and its the same for the winchester boys, i understand wincestors because the show is fluffin weird about them but it hurts the meaning of their codependency. i dunno?? i cant be hating, by definition i would be considered a darkshipper if i actually shipped characters But i dont. i dont ship any characters romantically. i like complex characters and dynamics, romance ruins that 80% of the time; there is something more romantic about realism. that fucked up shit happens just as often as your 'lalaland' bullshit
SCHHHOOOOOLLL
would it be crazy to say i like school?? even when i didnt have many friends i just liked to watch everyone interact, its the perfect people watching environment. its just stressful because i can literally feel everyone moving around me, like when you can feel someone is looking at you but 5x stronger, i can feel them walking around me even when i cant see them, its called proprioception. it makes everything very overwhelming very fast because my adhd medication heightens my senses and my senses are already higher than average. its a nice torture feeling peoples emotions just by standing near them. RAHHHHHhh
Pretty??
ive been told over and over by girls my age and adults that i am pretty but i feel rather average, i am average!! its a good thing in my opinion!! but in the back of my mind i try and ignore the fact that some irl's have only stayed friends with me for so long because im not a total eyesore. i hate it, i dont wanna be an accessorie!! i dont freakin care about looks outside of how well i can see my soul through my face.. if that makes sense. i refuse to talk to boys in my grade
fin.
Although I have not seen Sharp Objects nor know of the character Camille Preaker, I feel the same way with a lot of my favorite characters and authors. TikTok has a way of dumbing down characters to generic labels and perceive those (existing) people with a bias, its awful really, then again you have to remind yourself these people lack critical thinking and cannot fathom complex characters. And most of these users are young.
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to dislike and like a ship, I really feel labels like 'proship' and 'darkship' is very confining. Again, people approach you with a bias. It's a nuanced debate.